Air conditioning. Seven settings. Full power!

Someone told me yesterday that if you focus too much on the things that you don't have, you'll forget about what it is that you do. I'm tired of worrying about what got away or what could have been. I'm going to start living more for the present. And if I do that might future will be much more vibrant.

Optimism isn't something I'm very used to but I am desperately trying to find a reason to be optimistic every day. Hopefully some miracle will happen like an anomaly in my routine day that will change anything. I'm tired of chasing things that move too quickly for me to catch them. I'm only a human being. So I'm going to wait until something comes my way and when it does, I'm going to do everything that I can to catch it and hold on to it.

I came up with this short story about a man being a fisherman waiting for his perfect catch. The thing was, he just put a hook in the water with no bait on it at all. All of the other fishermen just laughed at him and called him crazy. They caught all the fish in the lake but threw them back or kept them to eat them. Seeing this, the fisherman grew tired and discouraged and reeled his line in but as he did, his perfect catch bit on his hook. And he took it home with him and took care of it. Because fishing to this man wasn't a sport and it wasn't out of hunger. He was fishing because he wanted something to take care of and have a passion for. And he didn't bait his hook because he left it up to fate, not technique or allure.

I wrote this because someone told me the expression that there are many fish in the sea. But everyone eventually has that one catch that they take home with them.

I'm getting stoked on watching the entire series of Neon Genesis Evangelion. It's taking up like 18 gigabytes on my hard drive and making it run like shit because I have so much music that I only have about 30 gigs to spare. So when it's done converting I am without a doubt putting that shit on my Zune and deleting it off my computer. Of course Zunes are awesome and you can put stuff back onto your computer (with an iPod you can't do that unless you get special software).

Chanse Hall is sending me an xbox360 game package with like 7 games that he doesn't even play anymore. Most notably he's sending me Armored Core 4. I'm a big fan of Armored Core games because you get to build a mecha, customize it and fight shit with it. It's fucking remarkable! And so fucking fun too.

I'm drinking a strawberry milkshake from Chick-fil-a and it is fucking amazing. It had a cherry and I want to eat it but it's at the bottom of the cup now. Stupid, stupid me.

I need to go outside RIGHT NOW and smoke three cigarettes in a row! And then I need to get a gumball from the machine and make my tongue blue. Or whatever colour I get but hopefully it's blue.

(I just "sold" my dad a Kia Spectra. This calls for some sort of celebration).


*I owe a lot of the inspiration for this blog to Charlie Lipsie. He's a very recent but good friend of mine and his advice is VERY inspiring.*