UNICORNSSS!

I'm not convinced that unicorns don't exist. Well, they might be extinct, but I don't think that they never existed. Why? Because of their magical horns. In order to fully utilize the magical horn, you needed to grind it up into dust. That's why there are so many fossils of dead horses and not unicorns. Who wouldn't want to have magical unicorn horn dust? You'd be out of your mind to not want that!

I talk to Katie all day every day now and I think it's whats keeping me sane anymore because I'm sort of in a slump and a bad position because I want to get out on my own. I NEED to get out on my own but right now it's not a possibility because I don't have the money or a stable enough job to support myself. I feel like the longer I stay with my parents (or my dad and his girlfriend), the more and more I get in the way of things. So I try to avoid them because I feel guilty. But then I get shit for it.

Oh yeah... Pegasus is dead. Yeah. Believe it. There was only one and no, you can't have one. I wish I could though. You have no idea how much pussy a winged horse could get you! That's so fucking elegant!

The playlist consists of music that I listened to when I was in high school. Even earlier than that actually. I miss when Hydra Head and Drive-Thru actually had good bands on their rosters. I don't miss Victory records at all. They can go fuck themselves. But Hydra Head, Equal Vision, and Drive Thru... pretty much ruled my fucking life. Tooth and Nail too. And THEY even suck now. But they have Solid State which is pretty legit. FUCK RISE RECORDS. Ugh...

I was looking up what it would take to build a real gundam. And I was surprised to find that all of the technology that would be required to do it actually exists. Maybe not the "Phase Shift" armor from SEED, but all the other practical stuff. I don't think that they would ever build a nuclear-powered exoskeleton though. They'd have to build something with a battery that can hold a ton of power. I'd also think that they would make them smaller too due to them being easier to manuever and everything. Plus the propulsion system would be ungodly.

Anyways... I'm going back to bed. So I can dream of unicorns.

It tastes like regular Dr. Pepper!

Have any of you felt like you met someone who you 100% were supposed to be with but you couldn't? It sucks. To make things worse, they make cameos in your dreams too. Not that it would make it a bad dream, it's just a reminder that you can't be with them when you're sleeping as well as when you're awake.

I had a dream about someone with blonde hair and brown eyes. The sky was on fire and she was wearing a white dress, but it was a really dirty one and it was all torn up. I realized that the world was divided by glass, and while on my side of the glass it started raining, on hers the sky was on fire. I could see her mouth moving, yelling something to me but I couldn't hear her words. So I went and I tried to find something to break that glass so I could rescue her and bring her over, but nothing could. So we just stood there for a while, with our hands pressed against the glass as if they were touching and I was looking down at the ground in disappointment. But when I looked up, she was looking at me in adoration. I started getting cold from the rain and she stepped back and motioned for me to follow her. But I just stood there in defeat and said that I couldn't. But she shook her head and kept telling to come over. I just stood there, looking at her. I turned my back to the glass for a second and when I turned back around, she was gone.

When I woke up, I was so sad.


Anyways, that aside I haven't been doing much. Just preparing to go to a school that in the end I didn't have enough money to go to. How embarrassing?! So what am I going to do? Stay in Erie for about a year maybe and get a car and build a little credit and then try again to get a loan? Probably. I mean... my sister got a car and it built her credit up to like a 730 score which is good. It's not fucking incredible but it's good.

Cave In, one of my all time favorite bands, is back together and releasing (has released???) a record. I don't know for sure if it's out yet or not because no one on p2p or torrent sites seems to want to share their music so I'll get on every torrent site and search for "Cave In" and I'll get incomplete discography torrents. Then I get on Soulseek and try to find the songs to fill the gaps and whatever's missing and I'll sit with a query for about 5 days waiting to get something in (shitty) 128kbps. It's not fair. More people need to know about this band AND SHARE THAT FUCKING KNOWLEDGE! Jesus... no wonder no one knows about them. They're not on iTunes, Zune OR file sharing sites/software. The only way that you can hear about them is by seeing them live, and you cant even get stuff that they recorded 10 years ago through that means. FUCKKKKKKKKK!

Now Botch needs to get back together and do a co-headlining tour with Cave In and Converge. Coalesce will be there too... with their Led Zeppelin covers.

I'm so fucking thirsty that it's fucking unbearable! UGGGGGGH!

Recommended anime:
Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex
Mobile Suit Gundam 00
Mobile Suit Gundam SEED -> Mobile Suit Gundam SEED Destiny
Code Geass
S-Cry-Ed